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flawed and fabulous

At the end of the year, a couple of years ago, I said to my husband, David, “I am proud of who I am becoming, who I am evolving into.  I feel like the hard work is really starting to paying off…but I have this dark secret.” He took in a slow breath, well aware [...]

take one foot out of the quicksand

  i walked into my exercise class the other day and caught eyes with a fellow exerciser.  as i passed her i said, “how are you, hailey?”   she had a sad look on her face when she replied, “not great.”  i was late for class and still needed to use the restroom, so i squeezed [...]

motherLeigh

mother 1. dictionary definition:  noun a female parent. 2. one woman’s definition:  We make sacrifices, we love our kids. We do our best to raise our children to grown into good, moral adults.  We cook, clean, work, run a household, help with homework. Kiss a boo-boo. Read bedtime stories, take them to the dentist, doctor and [...]

a work in progress

my mom was in bed most of my life.  not sure why, but i think it was because she is bipolar and was never diagnosed or treated.  she didn’t hold me, brush my hair, make me dinner, or attend my events, etc. growing up. my father’s parents both died without ever once telling him they [...]

death letter

i went to new york with dave a few weeks ago.  i was so excited to be going away with just him.  like all marriages, we have  many stresses.  one of them is, we have different views on how to handle the kids.  we have 5 kids so there are constantly situations to disagree over.  [...]

Keeping on your path while parenting

I am a big fan of, Carl Jung, the Swiss psychiatrist.  I am starting with one of my favorite quotes from him and ending with one I like as well.       Carl Jung wrote- “The greatest burden a child must bear is the unlived life of the parents.”  Often moms lose themselves when [...]

the upside of struggle

i have a good friend who just got some devastating news.  although she knew there were signs of what might come, she felt cold cocked when it did. my heart breaks for her because her heart breaks.  at the same time, my heart is filled with joy because the foundation of the life she settled [...]

stages of sober

in my 3rd month of giving up the juice, i am finding that, like most things in life, especially things that involve change or that i have had to make a big decision about, there are stages.   like losing my uterus:  stages- 1. devastation, 2. embarrassment / failure, 3. kept it to myself 4. began [...]

yogi man

my new thing is to be totally open and ready for every encounter.  i think little messages and gifts are given to us everyday and when we are open to them we can recieve, if we are closed off, we miss them.  so the other day when i was walking fryman canyon (a beautiful 3 [...]

365 Days sober

i recently said to my husband david, “i am so proud of who i am evolving into, i have worked so hard on myself to be the best i can be, i really like who i am becoming.  but, i have this dark secret.  i drink too much.” dave leaned over and gently touched my [...]